Ending my 2years relationship with a broken heart

all this happened because of me.
because i am planning to study acca at uk

this means i probably will be staying at uk for 2 years
and, my soon-to-be ex bf become so angry
as i will be leaving him alone in malaysia

we argued.
i tried to calm him down
tried to change the topic while sms-ing him
but,
ntg seem to cool him down
his mind is stucked with my plan that i will be going to uk for 2 years

i explained to him that ntg will change my love for him
even now, we break up
i know i still love him
but, somehow
i did not accept his return when he wanted to be together with me again

because,
i scared after 1 year
the same thing will happen
i really don't him to say break up at that time

in this 2 years relationship
we been thru alot of hard times and happy moments
and,
there is one point of time
that i believe he is the one for me

i started to think of our future
our marriage etc
so many happy things

but,
all these thoughts crash
on
27 of august 2009...............


why???
if ntg happen yesterday,
today we will be meeting up at 1 u.

finally i know what it is fell like
"so close yet so far"
we both are in the same building
he is in kpmg
i am in toyota
yet,
i am hoping to bump into him
at least let me have a last glace at him

i guess we will never each other again

haiz..
when we are couple
we can know each other activity
when we break up
it just like 2 strangers living in this world

i hate this feeling
i hate it